Why am I here?

This weekend had so many moments that took my breath away, and not where I expected.

When steph and I went to Paris, it was almost difficult for me to fully appreciate it. It was the strangest thing. I think this time I noticed the people more than the landmarks, and this truly affected my mood (and I think steph's as well). I think it’s safe to say that a lot of Parisian people are very stressed, and can be very short with you. Sometimes I find it funny, but sometimes I find it very arrogant – it’s like they are fighting to be successful but they have little interest in the success of others (just going to make a large brush stroke there).

I got a crazy headache that day and I think it was because of the stressful energy that surrounded us.

Today was the complete opposite. My family brought steph and I to a castle and we had a picnic on the green in front of the castle, there was a beautiful duck pond in the front and some donkeys on the side. It was incredibly peaceful.

Steph was very tired and took the train back to Paris, and I made some supper for my family (not my best meal – but good for now). And then we had an incredible conversation about why I came to France, and I swear I still have goosebumps.

Because in truth, I am not entirely sure why I’m here, or why I decided to come. I just knew that this is what I am supposed to do. And this is where I should be. So we began our discussion with this point.

We talked about my past, my beliefs, my morals and the direction that my heart has taken me so far. And then we discussed the importance of communication and the importance of extending your environment and how I have changed my responsibilities in my life.

We then moved on to talk about listening to your heart, and letting it guide you. We agreed that you must stoke the fire in your heart and preserve a constant energy.

And then this is where it got a bit strange, We continued our conversation, and discussed perhaps why this is a good time in my life to emancipate myself.

And then to take in all that I can, without rushing, but allowing whatever will happen; happen.

And finally to let change happen, but not let it change me.

(They are concerned that France could turn me into a French person. And they would prefer me to be a Canadian exploring France. )

I am really enjoying my family, I could not be happier. We seem to truly appreciate each other’s company and there is a lot of understanding between us.

Perhaps I still don’t know why I am here. But I’m letting my heart guide me, and in turn I am experiencing wonderful moments.